🐳 Struggles 🦦

I consider myself a creative soul, flourishing at the heart of growth. I've often reassured myself of how it is easy for me to allow those buds in my life bloom until... I uncover a bud I've been protecting, or ignoring or actively hiding. This proverbial bud seemed, in my mind, to prefer the safety of the shadows. Its unveiling may not be graceful—potentially unleashing anxiety filled waves of failure.
What then? Well, it needs to unfurl so it can wither, and allow for the emergence of new growth.
To help me process and prepare myself for the uncomfortable I write the fears down adding an "and then?" after the what I am fearing in the hiding or sheltering.
Some of the "and then's" could come true, but for the most part the "and then's" are bigger as a bud then they are when unfurled.
More heavy hidden and as Keeley from the TV servies Ted Lasso states "Problems, they’re like mushrooms. The longer you leave them in the dark, the bigger they get."
The encouraging part is by letting uncomfortable buds bloom it will unleash a torrent of energy, making space for the vibrant blooms I aspire to see flourish.

"and the day came when the risk to remain a tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom"
Anais Nin

Thank you for being here!